WINNER and LOOSER, which one are you??

Sometime i feel so damn small, nothing ,weak, and desolate. Push my brain to think "better being someone else" .I dunno why i have that thought. Poor me :(
Then i layin on my bed, the place where i can get my quality time for my self. Think for what i've don today, what i'm gonna do tomorrow, or maybe what i'm gonna be in Future. So many ppl think that i'm a tough gurl, never sad, always cheer up. hahahhahahha . that's my mask :)
Feels like have 2 identity. I can be a strong gurl, tough,independent, brave, have a lotta friend, delightful and when i'm alone i feel so weak.
God!! what happen with me tonight???? it feels like all hopes is gone :(
i need someone to make me realize that i'm strong enough to reach what i want. Really i am :(
i dont need someone who always underestimate ppl, comparing ppl. They r such an asshole!!! Do something that they don't have to do. Wasting life time!! An asshole like that must die!! kill all ppl's hope. that's not Good!!
Yeah, Comparison is Bulshitt. That's why i hate it. I hate when my friend always compare me with someone else. it's not about me, but my friends too who underestimated by an asshole.
and tonight i wanna tell ya, that an Asshole tonight is : MY SELF
Yeah, i hate my self when i'm being asshole like this. Looser. But that's me!!
fiuuuhh Thanks God!! feels better now when i admit that I HATE MY SELF WHEN I'M BEING A LOOSER!!!! *smile :D

When i write this post and when i admit that i'm a looser, i realize that i'm NOT LOOSER ANYMORE!!
Yeah , i brave enough for it. Not everyone can do it . Realize they own Mistake.

Imma brand new Person, i have brand new spirit.
Even i don't always look my self on the mirror, but when i do it i feel so damn fabulous,and Gorgeous ;)
even "truly looser ppl" can't see it. I can See that I'M A WINER!!!
No body can do what i've done now . See??
Even i'm so far from my parrents, i can looking for a my own money by work :)
i'm smart enogh for anything ;) . I don't care if u won't admit it. I can do what woman and man can do.
Yeah i proud of it!! :)
i still have 2 beautifull hands and 10 great fingers. Maybe u can't believe it but u know what? i can paint well, i can play a guitar , i can touch up my face well, i can cook, i can ride my bike to Car Free Day, i can Bloging and help a lotta ppl to make a web.LOL. Hands,fingers thanks God it's a greeeetest Gift ever ;)
Wanna feel my touch?? Don't!!! or u will be a Golden ;)

Thanks God!! i'm Feel SO Happy!! :D
finally i found ppl who can gimme spirit!! yeah that's ME!! MY SELF!! a gurl named SENDY PUSPA ANDINI. Great Gurl ever!!! :D
the lesson is

"Do not ever afraid to be your self!! Ppl are unique.Keep on your track.Believe with your dreams.No matter what "they" say.Life is choose.The one who can help u to through it just your self. Depen on your self. If u wanna be a poor ppl just be Looser but if u wanna see your future so bright, just be a WINNER!! :)
1 more thing, when u wish to be someone else, someoene else in somewhere is wishing to be u!!
Be Gratefull,always!!! ;)

u guys a  WINNER!!!
love ya :*
Sendy Puspa Andini




-Miss.Queendee-